the perfect way to bade goodbye

Everything here on earth do change. From the clothes that we wear, to the foods that we eat, even the people that we do treasure change and leave us.
Tears, they do fall. And I can't help but let them be. My head aches, but more and more, the pains that I do feel is too much. Deep inside me. I want to cry hard. i want to shout. And tell the world how much I do hate living here. And watching as my treasured friends, loved ones go and passed by.
There is no way to say "byee" without wetting my cheeks. without getting emotional. Because, I know, waking up tomorrow might be quite different from the way it used to be.
I guess, moving on means sleeping, and never wanting to wake up. At that scene, all the pains can be held at bay. Emotions don't need to be refurnished. You don't need to look for the pieces of your heart that went away by the time that it did shattered.
There's no way, that this pain can leave me.
Maybe, I might be able to accept it. But not now. Not today, Not tomorrow.
Maybe, next month, next year. I don't know. And I do not even want to know.